Not Your Mate Anymore

Chapter 19

I was angry. I wanted blood.

The idea of letting this man live was far from my mind. I couldn't. I wouldn't.

He killed my mother and I can't let that slide. I was here to end him. I was here to finish what my nana couldn't. He let so many wolves die. Innocent wolves who did not deserve to see such a fate from him.

His one son and his rogue pack raped women in front of their pups. Reginald raped and then killed Natalie Woods. My luna. A woman that was nothing but kind to me.

His own son. It's pretty obvious he got his gruesome ways from his father. Men like that did not deserve to live. They deserved to spend eternity in whatever hell the moon goddess had in place for them.

"Sabrina, please stop this. It doesn't have to be this way." Nana says to me.

I turn my head and growl at her. My nana. She is the reason we are all in this predicament to begin with. This man here was her spawn and she knew what he was capable off but ignored it. She could've saved mama but she didn't, instead she was begging him.

"You could've saved her. She did not deserve this. She is dead because of you." Josey says to her. Every word she said broke me because it was true.

I walk up to my grandmother, stopping right in her face. Our noses almost touching.

"You could've saved her. Removed her from his grasp and take her somewhere safe. He's the one that had a problem with you, he should've killed you." I say to her.

I hated the fact that I hate my nana right now. Goddess I'd just met the woman. Yes, granted, we spent 10 years in training but it's not like I saw her every day. In fact, I hardly saw her.

"I hate you for this. I don't know if I'll ever forgive you but for my grandfather's sake, I'll keep you alive." I say to her. I walk away from her only to notice that Reginald senior was winning the fight against his kids as the twin sisters were lying on the ground.

Do they ever win anything? They've spent the entire time today on the ground.

Josey jumps in on the fight and punches new uncle. He staggers back, clearly not expecting that. Before he can straighten himself, Josey comes at him with a spinning kick. Reginald falls to the ground where Josey straddles him and starts punching him. It's punch after punch as tears start falling down her face. My nana screams at her to stop but Josey pays her no mind.

Taylor and Reggie junior shift into their wolves and start biting at new uncles limbs. Taylor bites at his arm and new uncle roars in pain and utter annoyance. He pushes Josey off him and releases his insane power. His little kids cower away.

I release my power, all of it. Taylor and Reginald regain their posture and stand ready to attack their father. Josey gets up from where she was and gets ready to fight back.

"Wait!!!" Nana says and we all turn to look towards her.

"This is my fault. If you want to end anyone Reginald, end me. You must know I had to let you go to be with the moon. I never meant to abandon you but our work never stops." Nana says.

"So Reginald here is doing all of this because he has abandonment issues?" Josey and I ask in unison.

This guy.

Does he know we didn't grow up with our mother too?!

I turn to look at Reginald senior and I growl.

"You mean to tell me that you killed so many people because my grandmother left you when you were younger? Did you even consider that it was the same for us? I grew up without my mother but you don't see me killing people off for the heck of it!" Josey says to him.

I growl in agreement.

"You killed my mother because you were abandoned? My mother was abandoned too!! We were abandoned too!" I say to him in exasperation.

This is too draining but it was time to pull out the big guns. I was done playing nice.

I turn to my nana and have roots come out and keep her in place.

"You stay where you are. Trust me when I say, you stay out of my way unless you want to share the same fate." I say to nana.

Josey stands in front of her to keep her from stopping me from what I'm about to do. I turn my attention back to Reginald, my new uncle.

"One, I had my heartbroken. My mate, who was supposed to be my whole world broke my heart because of your shrewd plans. Plans so selfish that you ruined my life!" I say to him as I have a gust of wind throw him up in the air and bring him down hard.

"As if that wasn't enough to ruin a teenagers dream...." I say to him as I throw him up again and bring him down hard, this time having a root spear him through his stomach. He coughs out blood.

He tries to get up but I throw him up again.

"Two, your son and his rogues rape and kill pack members! Innocents that did not deserve what you put them through!!!" I say as I throw him down again. This time, roots come out from the ground and pierce through each of his legs. He howls in pain but that won't make me go any easy on him.

I throw him up again and he shifts through the lift but stays up because I will it. He wants to heal and we heal quicker in our wolf form. I was not going to let that happen. Once he's almost healed, he shifts back, which was probably a terrible idea.

I throw him down and have roots go through his stomach again. I do it three times, everytime waiting until he was a little healed to put him through that pain again.

I throw him down one last time and approach him. I put my hand through his stomach wound before it heals. I use my power to stop him from healing, slowly pulling apart his molecules, ready to blow him up into nothing. He started screaming in pain, nana was screaming at me to stop but I couldn't.

Besides the fact that the moon goddess wanted me to end him, he had killed my mother when I'd just gotten her back. He was the brains behind so many fallen wolves and his one death, wouldn't bring them back but it would end the evil that resides in him.

Am I a killer?

I couldn't be. I killed Vera out of anger. Athena did it? No I could've taken control of that situation before it got to that but I didn't. I'm the human here.

Reginald's screams pull me out of my thoughts and I pull my hand out. Yes I wanted him dead. Yes he deserved it but I can't be him. I couldn't let myself to go so dark because there won't be a way back. Especially now that I was bringing a child into this world, I had to approach it all differently. So there was only one thing to do.

I roughly grabbed his face so he was looking at me and I looked into his past. In that moment, it all changed for me.

He had a rough past. With my nana leaving him with his father, she threw him in the den of hyenas. He spent most nights going to bed hungry, they beat him up for the fun of it. My nana let new uncle grow up in human territory when he was clearly a wolf. His healing abilities helped him a great deal but that didn't change the fact that he felt the pain when they hit him or threw him around when he was a child.

He ran away when he was a teenager after shifting in his backyard when his father and stepmother where passed out drunk so they didn't hear his screams. He was traumatized because he thought he was a beast, a monster and actually believed that he deserved all the abuse he got because of what he was.

He wasn't taught to be proud of being able to shift. Who could teach him?

My eyes got so glassy just looking through his past. For the first time since using this power, I'd wished I had not gone through someone's mind without permission. I now understood his anger towards nana. I would be angry too.

Just a few minutes ago, I blamed him for my heartbreak.

I looked back at him as we locked eyes again. He knew what I did and he looked defeated at the revelation. I decided to allow him to hold on to his anger but I erased his plans to kill even more people

and create a monarch so evil.

After manipulating his memories and erasing his plans, I put the guilt there for killing innocents for his own gain. I said a silent prayer to the moon goddess to deal with him now. My job was done.

"That's it! War is over." I say as I stand on my feet and dust myself off.

I look back down at new uncle, who is looking up at me too. From NôvelDrama.Org.

"Now you know who I am and what I am capable off. Next time, I'll end you."

I say to him. I walk up to my grandmother as I loosen the roots that are holding her in place.

"Your son had a terrible upbringing and you left him to be raised by humans who abused him every chance they got. I don't blame him for hating you. Go make things right with him and if he doesn't let you, just apologize and take accountability." I say to her and she just nods.

I'll accept a nod for now. I walk away from her and to my grandfather who's been crying just holding onto his little girl's lifeless body.

This was utterly heartbreaking.

I knelt down in front of them and my grandfather laid my mother down. I kissed her forehead and then got up.

"Let's take her home grandfather." I say to him and he nods. He picks her up and makes his way back to the pack house. Probably to put her in the car and then take her back to the house and bury her there. I looked at my nana who was knelt beside a healing Reginald. I was not going to bother them there.

I walked up to new uncles two sons and knocked them out. I then linked Cj to bring warriors so the can put new uncles kids in the dungeons until we figure out what to do with them. I took Josey's hand as we walked back to the pack house.

I was tired and emotionally drained. We just needed to freshen up and go lay my mother to rest. I hope this is not the last time we see her. I needed her, even if she didn't raise me. I need my mother.

We got to the pack house and I made my way to Max's room so I can just take a shower. I walk in to find Max standing at the door to the bathroom.

"Come here.." he says to me and I just run into his arms and break down. The tingles already soothing my already broken heart.

"He killed her and I couldn't kill him Max." I say to him. I couldn't finish him off when the moon goddess told me to. Even after killing my mother, I just couldn't but now after seeing his past, which is no excuse, I knew I could never kill him

"Shhhh it's ok baby. Let it all out." He says to me while rubbing circles on my back. A pang of guilt hit me as I remember me screaming at new uncle for ruining my life with my mate.

I had Max.

How ungrateful of me.

How am I still so hung up on that anger when I have Max?! He is heaven sent and I'm busy trying to kill people over Percy.

Yes, I still believe that stupid sacred law and that everyone deserves their happy ever after with the mate the moon chose for them. I got lucky. Many can't say they lost their mate to someone else only to end up with an even better chosen mate.

I guess it will take some time to heal from years of teachers drilling in my head about mates and how we are to obey sacred law. It will take some time to heal from how Percy broke my heart and maybe running away to end up with Max wasn't the greatest of ideas but here we are. Together with a baby on the way.

I love him, no doubt. I'm happy to have given him my innocence and that he is going to be the father of all my children.

Yes, I plan on having more kids.

"Come on, let's go take a bath and make our way to your grandfathers house." He says and leads me in to the bathroom, where I see a bubble bath ready for me to sink in to.

After he washed me clean, dried me and then dressed me in just blue skinny Jean's and his white shirt with my Gucci princetown slippers. He dresses himself in the same but chooses to wear sneakers instead.

We make our way downstairs to find Damon. He tells us the car is ready to take us to the manor. We go outside and he opens the door for me to hop in the back and he goes to the other side and gets in to sit beside me. One of his warriors was our driver.

I see people outside picking up bodies of our fallen warriors. Some crying as they recognized who they were. It was a heartbreaking scene.

Max squeezes my hand as we both look out our windows at the horrific scene. As alpha and alpha female, we are yet to address the pack and have a farewell for all our fighters that didn't make it. Just thinking of all the people we lost, makes me feel guilty for just letting such evil live.

Would the pack understand my decision? People lost their mates. Their brothers, fathers. Just as I lost my mother, he took something from all of us. The pack will never be the same after this, we all need to heal.

Oh gosh so much healing.

After some time in the car, we finally drive into the manor and the car comes to a stop. I'm so lost in thought that I didn't notice the driver opening the door for me but Max calls out my name and I look at him and he points to my side. I look to where he's pointing and I see the driver waiting for me to get out of the car. I step out of the car and wait for Max to so we can walk up to the door. Before we can even knock, the door opens to reveal my father.

Oh boy.

I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like for him to lose his mate once again. They were about to rekindle their relationship, after what my stepmom did, he deserved a few new moments with her.

"Oh papa..." I say as I throw myself into my father's arms. He hugs me tightly.

"Come in Sabrina. Max." He says and let's me go. He walks ahead of us.

We all wait a few more minutes for Josey and Cj to arrive. They come in with their mates in tow. First, Josey walks in with the lookalikes on each side of her.

This was going to take some getting used to. I shake my head to rid myself of these thoughts.

Cj walks in right after Josey with Arianna.

My grandfather stands up and makes his way to the backyard and we all follow him. Right by the rose garden, is my nana with new uncle.

"What the actual fuck?" Cj says out loud. We all look around each other but continue walking. We all stop around the freshly dug hole and a sombre mood takes over.

"I was hoping we could do this without the actual killer." My father says grimly. We all nod our heads in unison.

"I know but he deserves to be here too. He is family." Nana says and my grandfather growls.

"He took my baby girl from me. He is no family of mine. So he needs to go and you can go with him if you strongly believe he should be here." My grandfather says. His wolf trying to make an appearance. We couldn't have grandfather shift right now.

I guess it will take some time to heal from years of teachers drilling in my head about mates and how we are to obey sacred law. It will take some time to heal from how Percy broke my heart and maybe running away to end up with Max wasn't the greatest of ideas but here we are. Together with a baby on the way.

I love him, no doubt. I'm happy to have given him my innocence and that he is going to be the father of all my children.

Yes, I plan on having more kids.

"Come on, let's go take a bath and make our way to your grandfathers house." He says and leads me in to the bathroom, where I see a bubble bath ready for me to sink in to.

After he washed me clean, dried me and then dressed me in just blue skinny Jean's and his white shirt with my Gucci princetown slippers. He dresses himself in the same but chooses to wear sneakers instead.

We make our way downstairs to find Damon. He tells us the car is ready to take us to the manor. We go outside and he opens the door for me to hop in the back and he goes to the other side and gets in to sit beside me. One of his warriors was our driver.

I see people outside picking up bodies of our fallen warriors. Some crying as they recognized who they were. It was a heartbreaking scene.

Max squeezes my hand as we both look out our windows at the horrific scene. As alpha and alpha female, we are yet to address the pack and have a farewell for all our fighters that didn't make it. Just thinking of all the people we lost, makes me feel guilty for just letting such evil live.

Would the pack understand my decision? People lost their mates. Their brothers, fathers. Just as I lost my mother, he took something from all of us. The pack will never be the same after this, we all need to heal.

Oh gosh so much healing.

After some time in the car, we finally drive into the manor and the car comes to a stop. I'm so lost in thought that I didn't notice the driver opening the door for me but Max calls out my name and I look at him and he points to my side. I look to where he's pointing and I see the driver waiting for me to get out of the car. I step out of the car and wait for Max to so we can walk up to the door. Before we can even knock, the door opens to reveal my father.

Oh boy.

I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like for him to lose his mate once again. They were about to rekindle their relationship, after what my stepmom did, he deserved a few new moments with her.

"Oh papa..." I say as I throw myself into my father's arms. He hugs me tightly.

"Come in Sabrina. Max." He says and let's me go. He walks ahead of us.

We all wait a few more minutes for Josey and Cj to arrive. They come in with their mates in tow. First, Josey walks in with the lookalikes on each side of her.

This was going to take some getting used to. I shake my head to rid myself of these thoughts.

Cj walks in right after Josey with Arianna.

My grandfather stands up and makes his way to the backyard and we all follow him. Right by the rose garden, is my nana with new uncle.

"What the actual fuck?" Cj says out loud. We all look around each other but continue walking. We all stop around the freshly dug hole and a sombre mood takes over.

"I was hoping we could do this without the actual killer." My father says grimly. We all nod our heads in unison.

"I know but he deserves to be here too. He is family." Nana says and my grandfather growls.

"He took my baby girl from me. He is no family of mine. So he needs to go and you can go with him if you strongly believe he should be here." My grandfather says. His wolf trying to make an appearance. We couldn't have grandfather shift right now.

"It's fine. I will leave...." new uncle says. My nana grabs his hand gently.

"No. You stay right here." Nana says and everyone growls at that. Nana looks at all of us incredulously.

"It's my house and even though he is your son, he killed my mother today nana. It's a little too soon to be playing happy family with my mother's murderer. I showed mercy by not ending his life. Don't make me regret it." I say to nana. She looks taken back by my words.

I hold my head up high to show her that I meant business. I wanted to lay my mama to rest without having the actual beast that caused her death within arms length.

"Fine. If he goes, I go." Nana says.

"That's fine. We can do this without you." Josey chimes in like it's a casual conversation.

"Just don't expect us to forget how you were right there and could've stopped it from happening. In my eyes, you're very much just as responsible in all of this as that son of yours. You not being here is actually a good thing." Josey says. My nana pulls new uncle as they walk away.

Some men come out from the side of the house carrying a glass casket with my mother inside of it. She was cleaned up and flowers were placed all around her. They lower her into the freshly dug hole and tears fall down my face.

We all close our circle after my nana and new uncles departure.

"I was hoping we could all say a few words. In your own words, say good bye to sweet Kimberley." My father says.

Josey clears her throat to signal that she will go first.

"Mama, I've had all of 5 minutes with you. It's really not fair that I have to be standing here doing all of this. I was so excited to have you back in my life but I guess I can find comfort in the fact that I got to meet you again. Thank you for coming back to us and helping us win this. I will see you again up there mother." Josey says and she throws a rose on the casket.

Then Cj says a few words, followed by my grandfather. Max says some words, then it was my turn. I close my eyes to steady my breathing.

"Mother... I just want you to know that we will be ok. You did all that you could. Thank you for coming back to us and allowing us to meet you once again as grown kids. I hate that you won't be here for the birth of my son but I know you will be watching out for us. I love you always." I say.

There was more that I wanted to say. Like how I wanted to avenge her. How I wish we could've had more time in doing mother and daughter things. Our life is of no normal werewolf. We are here to fight for wolves who couldn't protect themselves and that was my mother's job as well but she was also a mother and she wasn't granted the chance to be one.

I can only hope I have the chance to raise my son and not leave Max to do it on his own. That wouldn't be fair. I'd just die inside if I had to watch from afar Max raising my son with someone else. My thoughts were shaken away by the men shoveling in the dirt to cover the casket. Once they were done, we placed flowers over the dirt and walked back in the house hand in hand.

My grandfather went straight to the bar to open a bottle of whiskey. My father joined him and the rest of us made our way to the lounge. We sat in silence just taking in the day.

A lot has happened. A lot has been lost but here we were, with our mates. In this moment it dawns on me that whenever one of us finds their mate, bad news followed. Now Cj couldn't enjoy his time in getting to know his mate and we all couldn't enjoy the time to sit together like this.

Max has me sit on his lap. We cuddle like that for the entire time we are at the manor.

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*2 weeks later*

We were laying in bed having a lazy sunday in. Max had decided we would have breakfast in bed and just spend time with each other. We have been spending time with the families of the fallen soldiers for the past couple of weeks. It has been a really dark time for the pack with so many lives lost.

Our prisoners, the Locke family, are still in the dungeons with all our other prisoners who survived the fight. Yes, Percy was still a prisoner too.

There was no way Max was letting him out just yet. Ralyn didn't make it though. I don't know how she died but Percy is without a mate. He doesn't seem to care at all that she's gone.

I cuddle up to Max as he's working on his laptop. Pack work never ends.

Josey had gone to be with her mates and to prepare for her own Luna ceremony which will take place in a month. Right before mine.

CJ was planning on going back to blue moon to check up on the remaining pack members. Max had suggested we take over the pack and have Cj and my dad take control as his betas at Blue Moon.

Nana did have to return her son to us so we could lock him with the rest of his family. That includes Scarlett, Max's mother. She found out I was carrying her son's pup and she has been apologizing profusely for her part in all the fights and drama.

I get out of bed and walk to the bathroom to take a shower. Maybe that will help clear my head and allow me to relax today. I can go back and worry tomorrow.

I undress and get in the shower as the water heats up. I start by washing my hair and then washing my body. After all the cleaning up, I stay in the shower to enjoy the hot water cascading over my body.

The door opens to reveal a very naked Max. He pulls me in for an embrace as he gets himself wet. I put my hands around his neck and pull him in for a kiss, which turns passionate as I feel his hardness on my tummy. It was about to get extra steamy in here and I don't know about many people but this is the way to escape troubling thoughts for a while.

I welcome the sensations that take over me as Max caresses every part of me. I wrap my hand around his hardness and I stroke it up and down.

"Oh baby...." he says to me in a low voice that almost comes out as growl. It motivates me to continue and I speed up as he enters a finger into my insanely wet folds.

"Take me..." I say to him as seductive as I could possibly sound. He doesn't waste time as he grabs me by my thighs and lifts me up. I wrap my legs around him as I use my one hand to hold him by the neck and the other hand to take his hardness and press it at my opening. He enters me in one thrust and I tilt my head back and moan.

The tingles that erupt all over my body from just that one thrust have me wanting more. I feel cold tiles on my back as he starts pumping into me gently. Scared to hurt his pup.

I tug at his hair to push him to go a little harder and my man aims to please.

It isn't long before I'm exploding in pure bliss and he follows right after.

"I love you so much Max" I say to him and he responds by crashing his lips on mine and I feel his hardness once again. Letting me know that he's ready for round two.

I am his woman after all and I, just like my man, like to please. In every way possible.