You Are My Mate
Sofia’s POV
I could hear him calling out to me but I ignored him and ran back to my room, but this time, I didn’t bother shutting the door. There is absolutely no reason to be hiding from him, he just cleared every doubt that I had about us.
Now I know exactly what I mean to Damien. I should have never believed his words, I should have known better than to fall for the Mafia Lord. That is the mafia way, that’s their way of life. First, he took me away from my family, then he made me fall for him, and trust him, now he has shattered my heart to pieces, adding salt to my injuries.
I’ve heard stories of how Ruthless the Mafia Lord is but I never thought I would experience his ruthlessness firsthand. I should have listened to my dad’s Warning, I should have insisted I serve him as a maid instead, but I aimed higher, I let my guard down and I let him into my heart, now I’m feeling heartbroken and shattered.
I stayed huddled on the bed, sobbing my heart out, then the door pushed open and I heard silent movements in the room alerting me to another presence in my room, but I couldn’t care less. I stayed on the same spot, hugging my pillow close to me. I couldn’t feel that warmth that always surrounds me whenever he is close by so I knew it wasn’t him. When the footsteps came closer to me, I perceived their feminine body splash and I knew it was the twins. I spent so much time with them today, I’m sure I won’t be forgetting their amazing scent anytime soon.
I felt the bed tip under their weight and they each climbed on my sides, putting me in the middle between them. I guess they already know about what transpired between their brother and that Stacy girl that they seem to hate so much. I don’t know why they hate her and I don’t even know why they are sticking up for me, but I appreciate their presence and I love the fact that they didn’t try to ask too many questions from me, they simply lay beside me and let me cry to my heart’s content.
I didn’t know when I fell asleep, but when I woke up, the girls were sleeping right beside me. It’s so good to have friends that really care about me, but I can’t let my love for these extremely adorable girls or their gorgeously handsome brother to get to my head again, I’m the slave of the Mafia Lord and that’s exactly what I’m going to be acting like. He can be with Stacy or any other girl that he chooses to be with, I don’t really care. I’ll just try to avoid him and his girlfriend for now so I don’t get my heart broken over and over again.
I was hoping to sneak out of the bed so I don’t wake up, but I wasn’t quiet enough and they both jerked awake so quickly, startling me with their ninja moves as they stood alert. Damn, these girls have moves. It looked like they have been trained to fight like ninjas or something. That wouldn’t be surprising, considering the fact that their brother is the Mafia Lord. I think everyone around here has been trained to defend themselves, everyone but me because I am so replaceable. He can go back to his other debtors and get another slave whenever he chooses to.
“Where are you sneaking off to Sofi, don’t tell me you don’t want us around too, we just want to be there for you because we love.” Sonia said a little sadly as they both stared at me with sad faces.
“No, of course not. I was just being careful so I don’t wake you two from your sleep. By the way, thank you for being with me last night, I don’t know how to repay you two. But I do need to get to work right now, I need to find something I can do to please your brother so he doesn’t regret having me her. I’d hate for him to chop off my head because I’m not useful to him.” I said with a warm smile as I headed to the bathroom to perform my morning aberration.
“You’re joking right, Damien would kill us if we let you out in this state. You need to calm down and think about it carefully Sofia, I know you feel hurt and betrayed but you don’t have to do anything stupid.” Tonia pleaded softly, making me giggle at her nervousness.
“Relax Tonia, I never said I was going to do anything stupid. I only want to go down to the kitchen or the living room to do some chores, nothing more.” I said with a smile as I got into the bathroom to bathe and brush my teeth. I know they would try to stop me from going out, but I won’t let them stop me. It’s about time that I start doing things that make me happy, that way I would have no time to think about Damien and maybe, just maybe, these stupid feelings would go away and I may stop falling in love with him.
I stepped out of the bathroom with a towel on my chest, but the girls were no longer in my room and the whole room was awfully quiet. I guess they finally realized that nothing they say is going to make me change my mind and they decided to leave me to my decision. I walked to my dresser and stared at my reflection in the mirror, I look like a shadow of myself. It’s been only a few days and I don’t even recognize myself anymore. How did my life turn out this way, how did I become this sad, miserable person that has nothing and no one to lean on?
I think I might have pushed Sonia and Tonia away and they are the only ones that truly cared about me. “Why is all this happening to me?” I thought within me as a lone tear slipped down my cheeks. I can’t believe he had deceived me just for the fun of it. How could he treat me this way?
I thought it would be a perfect relationship. I thought he would be my me right. He is the first guy that has ever professed his love to me and he turned out to be the first guy to break my heart also. How do I live without him, how do I go on acting like I don’t care about him when we are both living in this house and I’m going to be seeing him every day. How is this going to work?
“Am sorry Sofia.” I heard in a tiny whisper and I recognized his voice immediately. He sounded so sad, so miserable that it tugged at my heartstrings to hear his voice, but I can’t let him win this time, I won’t let him into my heart, not anymore. I’ll teach him not to mess with my emotions anymore, I’ll show him just how angry I can be. I turned around and leveled him an emotionless gaze, looking deep into his eyes.
“What can I do for you, sir?” I asked him brusquely, laying emphasis on the sir, trying so hard to hide my emotions. I was looking deep into his eyes and I could see sadness and pain within those eyes that have a tint of gold and black. I think his eyes take on different colors that’s suit his mood at every given time.
“My love please, let me explain. It’s not what you think, there is so much you need to know about me. Please just let me explain.” He pleaded softly as he ran his hand through his hair frustratedly. He took a step closer and I moved back as well, giving him a warning gaze.
“If you don’t mind Mr. Damien, I would like you to please step out of the room for a moment. I need to put on some clothes so I can head down and make myself useful in this house. I can’t sit around lazying all day, I’m just a slave that was bought with money like a vase on display. I need to work and please my master so he doesn’t have any reason to send me out of his house.” I spat out in anger, as the tears slipped down my cheeks. I tried to hide my tears but he saw it anyway and I knew he was hurt by it which is exactly what I intended. I ignored the hurt look in his eyes and I moved over to the closet to get something to wear.
“Stop is Sofia, I know exactly how you feel, I know I hurt you real bad but you need to calm down and listen to me. You have to hear what I have to say.” He let out with a sigh as he tries to walk up to me but I moved aside, evading his hands before he could get a hold of me.All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.
“Or what Damien. What would you do if I don’t listen to you, would you sell me off to another drug lord or better yet, you could send me to one of your nightclubs, I could make some good money for you, did I tell you I could dance like a whore?” I asked tauntingly, pushing at his buttons, trying to get him more pissed.
“Shut the fuck up Sofia, I’m not letting you! Never!” he yelled furiously. He was behind me in a few seconds and before I could utter a word in protest, he captured my lips in a fierce kiss, pinning my hand up above my head to suppress all resistance. I stubbornly tried to break free but his hands were firm as he held me, backing me up against the wall.
“You’re mine Sofia, mine!” He muttered fiercely as he breaks the kiss and glare furiously at me. I had my head down, trying to avoid his gaze but he wasn’t having any of that. He raised my head up, forcing me to look at him and I had no fucking choice, I had to oblige him. Being this close to him is making my hormones go wild again, with his eyes fixed on me, looking deep into my soul.
I can’t deny the fact that I still want him. My rational self was urging me to push him away and look the other way, but my heart yearns for him. He is so close that I can literally feel his breath on my face. He released my hand and cups my cheeks with his palm, smothering my hair backward.
“I’m sorry my love. I don’t know what came over me, I don’t even know what I was thinking. Stacy came to me at my weakest point and she used my weakness against me. I was so pissed at you for pushing me away and Stacy just pissed me off even further with her constant rambling. I was thinking about you when she sneaked up on me again and I was so aroused that all I could think of was to release my anger. I had wanted to treat her like a whore that she is, I wanted to use her to obtain my satisfaction, then dump her like trash. I never wanted you to see that my love, I would never do that to you.
Stacy knows me too well, she knows my weak points and she used them to get to me. It’s my fault for letting her get to me, But I promise you it would never happen again. It hurts me to see you this hurt my love, I can’t bear to see your tears. It’s my fault for letting my anger to lead me into such an act, it wasn’t intentional, please my love, please forgive me.” He pleaded guilty.
“You hurt me, Damien. You keep saying you love me but you chose her over me and it hurts me because I love you so much. I don’t know why I feel this way, but that is exactly how I feel Damien, I love you. But I would not let you hurt me again, I can’t continue doing this, I just can’t. I need to know what you want from me, you have to tell me what you want from me, I can’t keep up with all this, it’s just too overwhelming.
I begged you, Damien, practically begged you to make love to me, but you turned me down, yet I caught you fucking that bitch like your life depended on it. How can you say you love me when you prefer being with another woman?” I asked him pointedly, watching as he looks away guiltily.
“What do you want me to say Sofia, I said I am sorry, I got pissed off over your behavior and I messed up, but I’ve apologized for my mistake, isn’t that enough already, what else do you want from me? I can’t be with another woman because you are the only one for me. It’s you I want, only you.” he yelled in frustration, making me shudder in fear, as I looked at him in fear.
“Why me Damien, why must it be me?” I yelled back at him, raising my voice like never before.
“Because you are my mate!” he yelled back in anger as his eyes turned pitch black, causing me to freeze in shock as I stare at him with eyes as wide as saucers.
Mate?
What is that supposed to mean?